Always laughing,
always joking
“You think you know but you have no idea. This is the diary of Aliesa
Montaine…”
I remain the same, did I tell you that I love you Brush your teeth and pour a cup of black coffee out I love to watch you do that everyday The little things that you do Each moment is new, freeze the moment Each moment is cool, freeze the moment I wouldn't wanna be anywhere else but here I wouldn't want to change, anything at all I wouldn't take everything out on you Though I know I do everytime I fall ------All Saints-"Black Coffee" “Your last name is Filan now.” “Shane…you’re ruining the intro.” “Well then say it again.” “Everyone out there watching this, see what I mean about having no idea? You probably thought he’d be more considerate didn’t you?” Aliesa turned her head and elbowed the man next to her. “You sell a couple of million records and have a bunch of screaming girls at your feet, and suddenly you start to believe that doing things like that are charming,” she complained playfully rolling her eyes as Shane winked at the camera. “So as I was saying…You think you know but you have no idea. This is the diary of Aliesa Montaine-” “Filan,” Shane piped up. Aliesa raised an eyebrow at the second interruption. He grinned mischievously at the screen before leaning in and giving her a quick kiss on the cheek. She laughed. “You’re ruining this dramatic moment you know,” she cracked, still facing the camera. “Come on Ali…You think you know but you have no idea…” Shane prompted. “This is the diary of Aliesa Mon--,” she began before abruptly stopping in mid-word as Shane grabbed her around the waist and pulled her closer to him so she fell back into his arms. He clasped his hands around her stomach. Aliesa lifted her eyes to meet his. “…taine Filan,” she corrected as he beamed down at her. “Now was that so hard?” Aliesa disrupted into a fit of giggles “Shane you didn’t say your part.” “That’s because everyone at home already knows who I am.” Aliesa turned her attention back to the camera. “I’m telling you. Huge ego’s these pop superstars! I mean look…” She was silenced by Shane’s hand over her mouth. “And Shane Filan.” Shane finished staring at the camera seriously as
Aliesa tried to pry his hand from her mouth. He looked down at her
and then back at the camera, adding a classic grin before the screen faded
into black.
Shane and I…Surprise. And that’s
saying it mildly.
“That of course was Aliesa Montaine’s Dangerous Misleading, up one spot
from yesterday, falling in at number two in the countdown today.
Of course I’m Carson Daly here at TRL with Westlife, whom I’d like to point
out through that last video were teasing Shane over here. Want to
share what about with the rest of us?”
Kian nodded grinning and patted a blushing Shane on the back. “Our boy Shane here thinks Aliesa’s BEA-UTI-FUL.” “She takes Shane’s breath away,” Bryan chimed in. “Aw guys! Come on!” Shane stammered. “So you don’t think she’s beautiful?” Carson asked amused. “No. I mean yes. I mean… the guys just like embarrassing me!”” Nicky chuckled. “Forgive him everyone. He’s just hot and bothered. Been thinking too much about Aliesa.” “Bryan McFayden here on the red carpet with the as always gorgeous Aliesa Montaine.” “Aw! What a sweet thing to say! Thanks so much. A girl can’t get enough compliments. You’re looking mighty good yourself Bryan.” “I’m almost positive not as good as you, but thanks Aliesa.” Aliesa smiled. “Looking forward to any performances tonight?” “Definitely am. I’m really hyped about seeing Westlife. I’ve never seen them perform live and I’m such a fan.” “Got a particular favorite? Most girls do.” “Why do I have a feeling my answer is going to show up on MTV for a couple of days?” Bryan chuckled. “It probably will. Want to make it a good answer so you end up on the news with Kurt?” “Good point." Aliesa grinned. "Well. I really don’t have any favorites, got to like them all because you need them all to be a group. But I will admit that I’m hoping to catch up with Shane. I have things to discuss with him. According to my 13 year old cousin I'm going to be in his wedding..." “I know you guys don’t like going too much into your personal lives, love lives especially. But I’m going to have to throw this one out there since everyone seems to be in such frenzy over it. I’m sure you all have been aware of all the rumors floating around. Here at MTV we’ve been getting calls for days asking for details. So, I’m sure that I’m not just speaking for myself, but also on behalf of your fans… Shane is it true that you and Aliesa Montaine are married?” “Yes…Yes it is.” They’re still surprised that it happened. The two of us married. It was huge news for a while. I guess it still is a little. I don’t know how many times we’ve explained our relationship to the media. Us. We. We never lied about the two of us. I mean when he said he didn’t have a girlfriend, he didn’t. When I said I didn’t have a boyfriend, I didn’t. We were dating, but we hadn’t come into that classification yet you know? And then when we finally did get exclusive, people weren’t really asking about him specifically or me. So that’s why we never talked about it. It never was brought up directly and we weren’t going to publicize it. It was a decision we made at the beginning, when we realized that we wanted to be together, that we were going to keep it quiet. We just didn’t know where it was going. We didn’t need the publicity, and we definitely didn’t need it if we woke up one day and decided that this wasn’t what we wanted. We’d been through public relationships before, and we didn’t want to make the same mistakes. I can understand why everyone was shocked. I was a little too. I don’t think we went into this thinking we were going to get married. But something happened between the two of us, and we just took the plunge. People tend to forget sometimes that even though we’re in the spotlight we’re not different. Aliesa looks away, her voice softer. We’re human. We have feelings like everyone else. And so in some ways this shouldn’t be surprising. Because when two people love each other that’s what the end result is. It’s frustrating when you find you have to schedule seeing the person you love around work. “Long time no see Aliesana,” Kian greeted merrily as she walked up to him in the recording studio. “Aliesana?” “Hey that’s the name right?” Aliesa rolled her eyes. “What is with you guys and nicknames?” “A nickname is a sign of endearment baby. You know how many women would love to have me give them a nickname?” “Nope. But I’m sure you’re going to tell me,” Aliesa replied stealing a quick drink of his soda. “Hey! Ms. Greedy! Get your own,” he said swatting her hand away playfully. “Where’s your man? He needs to buy you your own drink. You know…” He leaned in. “If you were my girl you’d never be thirsty and I’d never leave you alone.” Aliesa cracked up. “You think I’m funny?” “If you drink from the can of Kian that means you’ve got to give the man some loving.” “You’d be so lucky Kian.” “I’m always lucky.” “Does your girlfriend know you act like this when she’s not around?” “How do you think she got me in the first place?” Aliesa’s nose crinkled. “Oh you’re bad!” “To the bone babe. To the bone.” “Shane!” Aliesa cried out across the studio. “Kian is flirting with me!” Kian groaned. “Why do you always have to get me in trouble!” Aliesa leaned in. “Because I think it’s SEXY to see you squirm,” she whispered seductively. Kian chocked on his soda. “Kian you trying to steal my girl?” The two of them watched Shane jump up from his position by the soundboard and saunter over to them. “You’re evil,” Kian mouthed shaking his finger at Aliesa. Aliesa winked as Shane wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his chin on her head. She leaned back into him. “Pure babe. Pure,” she laughed. _____________________________________ I learn something new about her every
day.
Things she likes, things she hates, all these
small things that make her the person that she is. You know what
she does when she’s nervous? She bites her fingernails. And
then when you call her on it she does this little smile thing. I’m
such a sucker for that smile. She’s …she’s beautiful.
Inside. Outside. She’s the kind of person that you want to
spend every second of the day with because of the way she makes you feel
when you’re around her. She just radiates if that makes any sense…
I don’t know what it’s going to be like when she goes on her tour and I
won’t be able to see her everyday. I’m probably going to go insane
because I can’t have her with me. It’s going to be hard. Shane
runs his fingers through his hair. I mean how can it not be?Shane
sighs and doesn’t speak for a moment. I’m going to miss her.
A lot, a whole lot. More than I’d like to admit.
September 28
“Bad timing Shan. Tom Holanden is on his way. YES. THE TOM HOLANDEN. To take the pictures for Rolling Stone! I know… I know! I can’t believe we were able to rearrange our schedules like that,” Aliesa talked animatedly on the phone. Shane motioned for her to say hi for him. “I know Shan…wait Shane is trying to get my attention. He says hi… Yeah. Shane is standing right here being distracting.” Aliesa grinned at Shane. “He’s too cute,” Aliesa brushed a stray hair away from his forehead. “Now he’s rolling his eyes at me. Of course I’m too excited. This is unbelievable.” Her eyes darted to the door where Jeanne stood waving her over. “I’ve got to go. Jeanne is saying its time. Hug LA for me.” “BYE SHANNON.” “Yeah that was Shane. She says bye back,” Aliesa relayed to Shane before continuing her conversation. “Don’t stress. It’s fine… Everything is working out…Right…right…I will… Bye.” People I know keep me grounded.
Like Shannon. I tell her basically
everything. She doesn’t take my crap. She knows just the thing
to say when I've just had enough or when she thinks I'm being stupid.
You know I think she's the only other person I know with the same insane
obsession with ice cream. Aliesa grins at the mention. But
she's more than just my best friend. She’s definitely a big part
of our lives, and in our careers. I mean it’s more obvious with Nick
because she works for the Backstreet Boys. But I honestly believe
that without the things she’s done for me personally, the support, for
all the advice, for everything really, I couldn’t say that I would be here
right now in this at all.
“Tom’s shooting here so we can take pictures in our element,” Shane explained making quotation marks with his fingers as he said “element.” “In the house?” “He wants us in our everyday.” Aliesa laughed. “Who would pay to see that?” “They want to start in the kitchen,” Jeanne directed as they walked down the stairs. “And then he’s going to do living room shots, maybe some in the bedroom, outside…” Shane is Shane. He…He just… he gives me a reason to smile. And I love that about him. It’s one of those silly relationship things I guess. Aliesa smiles. He can’t make macaroni and cheese but I love him anyway. Aliesa lowers her eyes. Today with Tom, he was so crazy. He made me laugh a lot, so much so, I think I ruined all the pictures. He is so…sometimes he’s so random you know? He does things sometimes that I don’t expect. I think I love that the most about him because he gets so cute… Oh god. Did I just say cute like I’m seventeen? I did didn’t I? I sounded like a seventeen year old with a crush. She looks straight into the camera. Shane Filan look what you’re doing to me. You’ve got me all gushy. You and your sweet and thoughtfulness have got me embarrassed on national television. Her eyes lower back down. I can’t believe I just said that. October 1 One thing that I definitely did not expect was how busy it’s been. We’re flying to LA today. The trip was one of the things we had to reschedule around Tom’s shooting. We’re cramming stuff we needed to get done and stuff that just came out. As far as I know it’s basic promotions. Radio, in-store appearances, and I think a magazine interview or two. I’m not even sure. I’m just so tired. I want to walk into the house and sleep, but I can’t. Because like today, even though it’s my day off from rehearsing, I’m flying off somewhere. I really thought that my schedule would have loosened up because of the upcoming tour. Aliesa rolls her eyes. Obviously not. I’m sort of running around between wardrobe fittings, meetings, vocal training, and the gym and dance time, while still doing the everyday things I was before the tour was planned. I really wish I had a little more down time. But you know it can’t be helped. Obviously the album is still in heavy promotion. We just released a new single to radio. The record company is really pushing this one, A&R thinks it’s going to be massive. And I’m not going to just let it go out there without telling people about it or performing it. So I have to fit in giving interviews, doing radio spots, television, photo shoots, on top of the tour stuff. It’s just…Aliesa flips her hands up to try to elucidate. It’s hectic right now, really, really busy. She places her hands in her lap. What’s funny is that in some way it’s a good thing. I’m not masochistic or anything, but I just think in my head Aliesa you’re LUCKY that you are this busy. When you aren’t there has to be something wrong. Because in a career in this field, I think you always need to be out there and seen. And if you’re not its harder to stay on top. And right now, I’m definitely working on trying to keep my head above water. “Did we miss the flight?” “I think we have about five minutes to make it to the Gate.” Shane pulled his baseball cap lower on his head as they rushed through the airport, bodyguards trailing them. Aliesa bit her lip, and walked briskly beside him. “Guys we’re going to have to route you through a different area, too many people this way.” “Will we still make it in time Chris?” Aliesa piped up to the bodyguard as she hitched her shoulder bag higher up. “If we move it. We don’t have time for you two to stop for any pictures or autographs.” Shane grabbed Aliesa’s hand, and tugged her along as they headed off into a different direction. The flight to LA was insanity. I mean
just trying to get on the plane was stress in itself. We were running
around trying to get to the airport in time. And then when we get
there we find out that they changed gates. So we’re trying to find
our way. It’s chaos because some fans find out that Shane and I are
flying out, and the bodyguards are trying to get us from Point A to Point
B by literally pushing people aside. Planes don’t wait for anybody.
It doesn’t matter who you are. They aren’t holding it for you.
Trying to catch it was like a mission. We were literally booking
it. I seriously didn’t think we were going to make it. I mean
that alone should have told me this trip was not going to go well.
“Do you mind if we discuss this later?” “Why not now?” “Because!” “Aliesa will you just listen for a second.” “Shane I have been listening and I don’t want to anymore.” And of course those are the times when I’m probably
the most difficult.
“Thanks you two. That’s a wrap.” Aliesa fingered the small microphone on her shirt collar. “I got it.” Shane unclipped the microphone and placed it in her hand. She smiled gratefully. “Thanks.” He squeezed her hand. “What do you say we get out of here?” Shane helped her up from the black couch they were sitting on. He understands like nobody else.
I think the only thing that keeps me from going completely mental is that
Shane is around almost holding my hand through the whole thing. He
basically is making sure I don’t fall down. He makes sure I’m okay.
And I'm thankful for that…that I don't have to go through this alone.
October 2 We were up at about 6AM to begin promotions.
We’re probably not going to get back to the hotel until about 11 tonight.
There’s just so much we have to fit into our schedules before we leave
tomorrow. Shane shakes his head. We have two different agendas and
I think that’s what is making it so much worse. I’m here for the
group, she’s here doing her thing, and then we have some joint stuff.
In the end we don’t have any free time whatsoever.
Aliesa adjusted the headphones. “I’m so sorry that I couldn’t make it in yesterday Jojo. But I thought of a way I could make it up to everyone. I brought in a bribe so I wouldn’t get in too much trouble. “Well from where I’m sitting I’d predict definite forgiveness,” Jojo
commented as
He leaned into the microphone. “Hey LA.” The switchboard lit up like a Christmas tree. “I think the listeners know what that bribe is. The lights are all blinking here. It looks like we got tons of calls coming through let me go ahead and answer at least one of them…Hey you’re on the air!” “OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! AM I REALLY ON?” “You’re definitely on sweetie,” Aliesa answered amused at the girl’s excitement. “OH MY GOD ALIESA?” “That would be her name. What’s yours darling?” Jojo chuckled as the caller continued rambling “It’s Melissa…I can’t believe I got through…JOJO I listen to the show all the time...” “So glad somebody is! You want to take a guess who Aliesa brought with her?” “Aliesa OH MY GOD is SHANE there with you?” Aliesa took a sip of her water in front of her, biting back a laugh as Shane covered her microphone with his hand and spoke into his. “I hope so,” he said. The scream was deafening. “Whoa. Someone’s excited. Want to ask him something Melissa?” Jojo teased. “Yeah, yeah umm…What are you doing in LA?” “Following around my woman.” Aliesa snickered at the comment. Shane nudged her with his elbow. “Ali and I have promotions and meetings this week. Unfortunately I’m not here to relax. I’m working,” he finished. Melissa giggled and Jo-Jo cut in. “Hang on the line Melissa we’re going to hook you up with some free stuff okay.” He smiled at the two popstars in front of him as he cut off the call. “If you didn’t catch on with all that commotion folks I’ve got a two-for-one interview today. I’m here with pop’s power couple, Shane Filan and Aliesa Montaine, and I am forced to ask can life get any better for you two? Shane’s got a new album coming out with his group. Aliesa you’ve got a headline tour coming up. You guys are all love and happiness.” “Well when you put it that way it almost seems like it can’t!” Shane noted. Aliesa laughed. “Honestly.” “Seriously now you guys! I mean Shane my man you have got the career and the girl. I’m jealous here. I mean this is Aliesa Montaine we’re talking about.” Aliesa leaned into the microphone, opening her mouth to speak but Shane beat her to it. “I know what can I say? She’s definitely a keeper.” Jojo chuckled. “And with that confession right there we’re going to go to a quick break and then we’ll be back with more music and more with the lucky Shane Filan and Aliesa Montaine. Keep it locked here.” October 4 You know people think this life is so glamorous. "You okay?" Aliesa turned from her gaze out the window and sighed before resting her head on Shane's shoulder. He kissed her forehead. "Crazy huh?" "A little." "We'll be home before you know it." She nuzzled against Shane’s neck seeking comfort. "I know." You know what I hate about being a “celebrity”.
You get to this point where people make you seem larger than life.
“What popstars do on their down time...ooh primo parking spot up front Shane…get it…See that MTV…” Aliesa pointed to the grocery store in front of her. “We live an exciting life. We’re going grocery shopping,” she explained as Shane and she headed towards the bright lights of the store. “And I’m sad to say that it’s something we haven’t done in a while.” “Because we’re lazy…” Shane said as he grabbed a shopping cart. “But now we’re out of food so we’re forced too, and you lucky people at home get to partake in our errands.” “We should just head to the frozen food section,” Shane remarked as they weaved into the aisle. “Fine dining. You become a multi-platinum recording artist and you too can buy frozen,” Aliesa joked as Shane dropped something into the cart. “Baby I thought we were buying real food.” “Popsicles are real food.” You know the best parts of my life are spent doing what most people would take for granted. The times where you can just sit at home or go to a movie. Aliesa and I are like that you know? We’re just normal, nothing that flashy. We’re…Aliesa…Shane looks straight into the camera. We’re real. _____________________________________
“Best feature? Oh gosh.” Aliesa turned to face Shane. “That’s a good question…Ummm…” “You like how she’s taking a LONG time to answer this one,” Shane said pointedly, chastising Aliesa for her inability to answer. Aliesa laughed. “But there are just so many great things about you sweetie,” she defended. “So name one already so I don’t feel all inadequate and pathetic because my wife can’t name one,” Shane whined playfully. “Well…he has a nice smile.” Shane groaned. “Ali. All that time and that’s the best you can come up with? That’s it?” “What do you mean that’s it? The smile should be rendered illegal Shane.” Aliesa turned to the camera. “You all agree right? The boy is like walking charm. I swear it. He flashes a smile and suddenly people are just letting him get away with everything.” She turned back to Shane, letting out a squeal when Shane kissed the top of her nose. “I like your nose.” “Now who’s the one coming up with lame answers?” Aliesa remarked. “It’s cute.” “It’s cute? I had a better explanation than it’s cute.” “You’re cute.” Shane smiled at her. Aliesa fell back against the sofa dramatically. “See what I mean about that smile?” She lifted herself back up. “Now I’m going to believe that the statement was the best compliment I ever heard in my entire life.” She grinned and turned to Shane. “So I’m cute huh?” “Very,” Shane clarified. Aliesa traced his nose with her finger. “I’m not taking back my answer. I still like your smile best,” she said, her finger landing on his lips. He kissed it. “Or maybe I like your lips…” Aliesa trailed off. “Because I’m a good kisser,” Shane taunted. Aliesa’s jaw dropped. “I can’t believe you just said that!” “Admit it Ali.” She gave him a look and then faced frontward. “Secrets revealed only on MTV. Shane Filan is the BEST kisser in the whole wide world,” she said dryly “And I’d just like to point out that this proves he really does have a big ego,” she added smirking. She stared up over the cameras. “He’s giving me that look isn’t he?” she asked. Voices in the background affirmed the obvious. Shane started tickling her. “Shane…we’re not going to finish…if you keep doing that,” she said in between giggles. “Then take that one back Mrs. Filan,” he said stopping. Aliesa didn’t bat an eyelash. “Okay fine. Mr. Filan, you’re not the best kisser in the whole wide world.” “Do you see what I have to put up with?” Shane cracked jokingly, and pointed to the woman beside him. She planted a kiss on his cheek. “You can’t hate me Shane. You LOVE me. Me and my cute nose.” He smiled. “That so?” “You love me…” Aliesa sing-songed. Shane leaned over and gave her a quick peck on the lips. She pressed her forehead against his for a moment, and then she turned and smiled at the cameras. Aliesa winked at the cameras. “Alright I admit it. Nobody kisses like Shane Filan.” And with that said the screen faded to black. Read
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